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I AM: 22 [in june], a music lover, a born radio announcer, a nail biter, creative, lazy, open minded, tired, left handed, low self-esteemed, loud, non-content, a loser, hungry, lost, an oc watcher, deep down cry baby, tough on the outside, a self pitied victim
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Young Man, Old Man (You Ain't Better Then The Rest) - The Dissociatives
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posted on 2004-03-09 at about 2:20 a.m.
catch twenty-two
I know that this is hard for both of you being so far apart but unfortunately that is the reality of the situation. maybe it's because i cant express it verbally, but i have to write here... maybe it's my fear of saying somethink that you might take offence to (that is not meant) maybe it's because i might not be able to actually say it well, i really don't know - sorry. yes this is the reality of the situation, is it bad to want to try? is it really that much of a problem? how on earth do you make this work if you don't try to make them work? i know im not some magic fariy who can wave a magic wand and make everyones fantasy come to life, or make all's dreams come true. but if you are given a helping hand towards someones dream there is more a chance that it could happen, rather then leaving it alone and seeing if they can make it by themselves.... in this case, we need to see if this can work, by trying, by testing the waters. and yes, it is hard for both of us, and it wont stop being hard, until we are together for sure, knowing that no one can rip us apart, i feel so bad knowing that at any point in time this (what we have) can be shattered into a million pieces at the drop of a hat, when the reality is, that we have worked so god damned hard at this, that we deserve to be given at least the chance to make it work, to prove that we can do it. i hate in the most part, that this decision is in niether of our hands, what can we do with that. You are welcome to stay here for May but I would ask it to be only until the end of May that, sorry i cannot do, i know it might seem harsh, or rude, but i cant do that. and you know what, i have to, i have to leave because it's in our best interests, to save what we have right now, i have to depart it..... catch 22 isnt it? i don't like that, i dont like it one bit, and i have no idea how we can get out of it, i want to make everyone happy..... thats not gonna happen i dont have a life in australia, yeah i might talk to people there, but thats not my life.... i have made it here, i don't fucking care that i've only been here 4 months, i couldn't care less, this is it, this is my life now, i've more at home in this country, with the company i have, moreso then i EVER have in the country i formerly called home. look left, and look right, it looks clear but when i go to cross the road i get hit by a car - where is my safety? where is your saftey? where is everyones happiness... i know where mine is
missed my whore like ways?
the reality is - 2005-07-19
"listen to the wind" - 2005-07-15
asking too much, huh? - 2005-07-10
city light dot to dots - 2005-07-05
re-hashing - 2005-06-27
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