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I AM: 22 [in june], a music lover, a born radio announcer, a nail biter, creative, lazy, open minded, tired, left handed, low self-esteemed, loud, non-content, a loser, hungry, lost, an oc watcher, deep down cry baby, tough on the outside, a self pitied victim
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Listen To The Wind - John Farnham
No Sensitivity - Jimmy Eat World
Caught A Lite Sneeze - Tori Amos
Electricity - Something For Kate
![Joining You [part 1]](http://images.amazon.com/images/P/B00000IHD7.01.THUMBZZZ.jpg)
These Are The Thoughts - Alanis Morissette
There Is A Light That Never Goes Out - The Smiths
Young Man, Old Man (You Ain't Better Then The Rest) - The Dissociatives
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posted on 2003-11-08 at about 5:41 p.m.
guilty feeling
i know i've told you on the phone but...i dunno i feel so guilty for not being as happy as i know i should be and i know i blame it on the environment and thats all i can say i know you were estatic when you had 19 days to go, as was i at the time (and once again, i was no where near where i am now) then, there was no one to bring me down, and thats all i get now i feel like shit because im not happy, or feel excited about coming over.... babe believe me, i cant fuckijng wait to get there, i want it more then anythink else in the world but its hard to think that positive when the people i live with constantly bring me down....anywhere else, i think i'd be over the moon by now and it would be all i could talk about... but i cant do that here (and i blame me for that) when im on the plane laughing and thinking that if i dont want to see these people (mum,richie,matt and cruise) again, i dont have to, there is nothink that will force me back to those people!!! i love that, but it hasnt happend yet.... and thats what i hate it is sooo hard to thrive in a house like this, im sorry baby, and i know you understand, but i have to get it out and im sorry im sorry that i cant deal with it and im sorry that im not a hell of a lot dtronger to put up with all the shit, but i am weak and they all wear me down, ALL the time i will be happy, and you will see it, and it will be because of you hun but it probably wont happen until i step foot on that plane at the cairns airport, so maybe when you call me before i leave, you might catch me at my happiest while im still here... cause it isnt going to happen while im still in townsville i know it my apologise hun i love you i love you ....darling i love you
missed my whore like ways?
the reality is - 2005-07-19
"listen to the wind" - 2005-07-15
asking too much, huh? - 2005-07-10
city light dot to dots - 2005-07-05
re-hashing - 2005-06-27
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